Imperfect Life

The gospel of John chapter 1 verses 1-18, to me is a complete description of Christian world view. It describes who God is, who I am, what the world is, and how it all relates to one another. Every time I read or listen to first part of John 1, my heart is filled with awe of God's almighty and infinite power. "In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God (v.1). The true light, which enlightens everyone was coming into the World (v.9). And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, and we have seen his glory glory as of the only Son from the Father, full of grace and truth (v.14). And from his fullness we have all received grace upon grace (17).   When I read these words, I see an image. An image of me laying down on the grass at night time, and I see millions of stars in the dark sky. All of sudden, those stars begin turn into words and fall on me. Covering me completely as if the word are a warm and safe blanket that covers me. I hope one da...

This week has been very difficult for me. Side effects of chemo and other medications really took a toll on my body. Although chemo sessions might be somewhat less threatening, recovery period is far more painful and intense. It feels like I have no control of my body. I can feel and see my body deteriorating right in front of my eyes each day. Nothing seems to be working right. I try hard to hold onto my mind but at times, I feel like I am about to lose that too. I was complaining and told a friend that if I knew how to cuss, I would be doing it right about now. My godly and beautiful friend dropped a bomb on my behalf, and we laughed away my pain for a moment. I love you my friend, in some completely demented way, it really comforted me. I have been crying out "Lord, please help me!" I don't know how else to ask my heavenly Father than just Help! This morning as I woke up, I was reminded of how eagles molted and renewed their old body and how God said in Psalm 103:5...