It's a Process
There are two voices in my head. One says "Don't put it out there. Nobody cares. Why do you want to put your dirty laundry out?" The other says, "It's okay. It's a process. Others need to hear about it. It will help you". My mind is complex and confused. Needless to say my brain is full of crazy maze that I cannot seem to figure out. The combination of menopause, chemo, and grief of having cancer is like a dynamite ready for a disastrous explosion. It will be one year anniversary on April 1st that I was diagnosed with cancer-I don't even to call it an anniversary because anniversaries are for good things. May 12th last year, I started chemo treatment. It's been a hectic and stressful year. I think I was totally focused on getting through it. I was just determined make it through and be done with. Now that I am almost at the end of treatment, I am faced with fear of "what if's". If I had been in denial this whole time, now I...