Dear Friends

Dear Friends,

Early tomorrow morning I will be going in for lumpectomy. After going through twenty rounds of chemo therapy, surgery doesn't seem so scary. I feel confident in my surgeon who is a breast specialist (as funny as it sounds...it's true) and I am trusting in God who is my creator and healer. While I was listening to Pastor Lee Jong Rak's (Baby Box) testimony a few weeks ago, I was convicted for not trusting in God for healing. I knew it in my head and may have believed it in my heart for other people, but I realized that I did not truly believe God's healing grace for me. Maybe I have been too afraid to believe due to fear of being disappointed. But that evening, I repented for my unbelief.

As my anthem, "Glorious Unfolding" by Steve Curtis Chapman's lyrics say, I have been resting and watching His grace unfold. I don't understand what all this means, but I'm not suppose to figure it out but soak in His grace. Being a driven person that I am, sometimes I feel like I am not doing a good job at completing an assignment that I don't even understand. I must remind myself, I can't figure it out even if I tried because only God knows. I participate and continue to write the unique story that God is writing with me as I peacefully watch His glorious unfolding.

Friends and strangers, I am so grateful, more than I can articulate, for your love and prayer. I truly believe that I have been able to go though it with such peace, joy and strength because of  your continued prayer and support. I am overwhelmed by all the love you have poured out to me during this time.

All the fears and anxiousness about living, healing, and complications, I am putting behind me. I choose to hope. I hope anyway. Hope against hope. Tonight, I want to send my deepest gratitude and love to all of you.

XOXO,
Min


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